Questions

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God knows it has been hard tonight…
Watching you swing by them left and right,
Only god knows what’s real tonight..
Cuz baby I’ve been wreaking my mind.
This whole mess has me so dazed,
Still them hoes are not fazed,
Why why do you try me so?
Oh lord tell me no?
He knows he knows how it hurts me…
Still why won’t he grant me this mercy?
Oh baby!
What’s real today is being sold off as lies.
Them words hurt more than rocks and knives,
This scar that I’m carrying for all to see…
Oh Lord grant me mercy
For it has me Questioning Can’t you see?

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Questions

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God knows it has been hard tonight…
Watching you swing by them left and right,
Only god knows what’s real tonight..
Cuz baby I’ve been wreaking my mind.
This whole mess has me so dazed,
Still them hoes are not fazed,
Why why do you try me so?
Oh lord tell me no?
He knows he knows how it hurts me…
Still why won’t he grant me this mercy?
Oh baby!
What’s real today is being sold off as lies.
Them words hurt more than rocks and knives,
This scar that I’m carrying for all to see…
Oh Lord grant me mercy
For it has me Questioning Can’t you see?

A letter to My Ex..

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You just weren't meant for him

Dear Ex,
There are Days that will mean more to me than it will another,
There are times I’ll think bout you,
There are times I’ll lowkey kinda miss talking to you,
But …..😐
I’ll never want you back,
I’ll never look at you the way I used to before,
I’ll never think of you as someone I know,
You’ll always be a beautiful memory
But that’s what you’ll always be a memory.

Cry…

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Cry
For it is a way to heal..
Cry for it’s a way you feel..
Cry for it keeps you alive..
Cry cause the numbness went by..
Cry cause baby everything hurts
Cry cause your bubbles burst,
Cry cause you can see the truth,
Cry cause you lived the lie.
Cry cause baby time won’t stop by..
Cry cause its too late to say goodbye!❤
#pari

Though he doesn’t hit you…

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Is it love when he makes you feel like you are less?
Makes you feel like the love you offer is less?
Makes you feel guilty for your time with friends and family?
And a little me time with yourself?
Dominates every aspect of your life.
From the way you dress to what you eat?
Wants you to be there for him all the time and never is there for you?
Digs up your past at every turn?
Asks around your friends for info on you?
Blames you for rumours the bitches spread bout you?
Makes you feel no matter what you do your love is never enough and you don’t know what he wants from you?
Is that love ❤????

The book called ‘ME’

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I am the worst…
But you have to understand…
I wasn’t always this way..
Dark, cynical and jaded…
Once I too could’ve loved…
I too could’ve trusted…
But the thing is I am afraid..
Yesterday hasn’t exactly been fair to me.
It took me a long while to be just me.
I have emotional scars given to me for loving too much, for being too much, for being me.
And I am not exactly the naive fairytale believer I used to be.
The past changed me.
To love me you have to read all the chapters of the book called ‘Me’ and despite it all love me.
For love isn’t a bout judging its bout knowing it all and accepting a
person with it all.
Loving means unconditional faith and belief in the person.
And you do have a penchant for
digging up graves , Asking around you know I am a broken person…
I don’t need those kinda questions.
And no matter how much you say you love me I won’t believe you. Even if you said it a million
times.
Prove it to me with your actions. For I lost my faith in words eons ago.
For I am a women with scars,
A girl with bleeding wounds.
I don’t need the kind of love that makes me bleed more..
For I have bleed and I have shattered a thousand times.
I deserve a gentle and healing
love.
And before trying to break the walls around my heart❤.
You should really consider that if you want that kinda responsibility. Cause breaking them all down and at the end giving up cause
you can’t do this,
you can’t put up with may cost
you nothing but it will cost me everything.

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Loving me isn't easy..

Say Baby …

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Tell me baby

Don’t love me so much that I drown,
That I forget how to come back to the shore,
From the moment I saw you,
I haven’t slept for weeks..
Say baby, how you feel bout me?
I won’t tell anyone.
I can’t sleep alone come visit me in my dreams,
I can’t walk without you be my support,
My heart beats for you,
My eyes only want to see you,
Except loving you I can’t do anything..
You will notice my absence when it rains,
my eyes are filled with unfulfilled wishes,
True lovers means much more than making love,
It’s bout making love to the soul.
Say baby,
Do you love me?😌